Edit: That post made no sense. Anywho, me and my cousin Stac the weekend before Halloween. :)

…it will give you the butt hole cancer. O_O

At least that must be the rumor going around. Anyway, I got this finished last week and it’s up for sale. I may have to go with an eBay account by using someone else’s bank account since eBay doesn’t allow transactions to be paid by money order anymore for some reason.

( Pics from our trip to Starved Rock… )

I never NEVER want to hear “I have a pit bull and he’s sooooo gentile”. Fuck you, idiot. I keep hearing this over and over since last Tuesday. Thanks for the birthday wishes, but it became a shitty fucking day when I was repeatedly attacked by a dinosaur with fur. Ripped jeans, ripped flesh, fear, bite, run, bite, screaming, bite….hate.

After the ambulance dropped me off, I laid there in the ER with pain so terrible that I passed out. Then came the shots. One for tetanus and another was an antibiotic. I don’t mind needles, but the burning on top of the ripped flesh? I passed out again.

I was again wakened by a kiss. Laura was there. She was the ONLY one there for me. “Are you OK hun?”

‘No.’ I responded as I started to cry. ‘I told you I hate birthdays’, I said, laughing.

“Cant you ever be serious?”

Yeah, I can. Pit bulls (and most dogs) are dumb ass pieces of shit that should never be owned. Man made dogs are retarded. Don’t believe me? Hmm, how many domesticated dogs do you see in the wild? Humans made them and when they cant control them? They don’t understand why. Know you fucking animal and try to master it. Don’t project human emotions onto a beast.

I cant stand dogs that cant be kicked far away. That doesn’t mean I hate dog owners. Humans take offense if you hate dogs. Why? Because we are an egotistical race. “That’s my baby” I heard tonight. “I prefer big dogs” (that comment came from a chick annnnd I told myself not to make a sex joke).

I’m 5’8” and 160 pounds. That damnation of a creature attacked me…not to eat….to KILL. At least it was me and not a child….



Call me a hateful prick if you want, but tend to my cuts first.

AKA Steven Jr. My ex wife named him. I had the paperwork in my hand and I was filling it out (to name our child) when she said, “HIS NAME WILL BE STEVEN JUNIOR!”
Wait, hun, we decided on a name already. It’s….
“IT’S STEVEN DENTEN JUNIOR!”
Junior? It made me feel like everyone was going to see me as an egotistical assfuck, but one does not argue with a woman giving birth. LOL Originally, his name was to be Tyler. That was the name we decided on. My first choice was Chase. Chase ‘whatever-the-fuck’ Zabel.
I offered her to choose the middle name and she chose 2 of them. Tyler Denten Ray Zabel. Or Chase Denten Ray Zabel. Can you imagine what a pain that would be for him while filling out forms for whatever? lol

Anyway, so Steven Junior it was. After 22 hours of labor, he was born. There was my ex (duh) and her mother, and me; crying like a bitch. ‘Baby’ What, Hun? “You did it.“
You did it Baby. Baby smiled and passed out in my arms.

I got to hold him first. He opened his giant baby blue eyes and I cried again. There were no words to say. Hell, whatever you say is lost on infant ears.

I don’t think I have to tell you parents the way it feels. He was mine. Me and Baby made this beautiful child. My baybay. So beautiful and so mine.

I had my ‘snip’ that same year. Why would I want other kids? I had my beautiful son, my dream wife, and the newest house in the greatest neighborhood.

I miss you every damn day, Steven.

You always were and always will be everything to me.

Hee heeeeeeeee.

Hee heeeeeeeee. I have to say that this blizzard has been awesome. :D I went out there to see the mayhem. Thunder, lightning, freezing wind, and snow blowing in all directions (even upward from that wind). The lightning was especially cool, the way it lit up all the snow. :)
PS no sarcasm in this post. It really is wicked out there.


Painted in 2002.

Yesterday, I was outside and 6 squirrels dashed past me and into the neighbor’s bushes. All that could be seen was soft pine needles flying and all those squirrel tails flopping all over here and there. I guess that isn’t to interesting, but it was just entertaining enough to type out.
Here’s a meme I yoinked that was written by a sadist:
( All my friends and loved ones are paralyzed! Oh noz! )

Firstly, let me say that I’m back to being hooked on LJ again. Now that I’m the only user on this computer, I’ll be around like I used to be and I’ll be looking for new friends here, because it took me all of 10 minutes to catch up on 2 months worth of friend’s posts. Ghost-town Journal dot com.

And now for recent art. Here’s the beautiful, creative, and awesome kateri_kachina and her son Will who just turned one this month. I had it printed and they did a great job.


One of the coolest Ljers in the history of forevers, axcess_denied who wanted to be a demoness.


And this last one is of a high school friend of mine, Kelly. As a joke, her and I once got married on Facebook. My mother took is seriously and called to ask WTF. That alone made it all worthwhile. Then instead of divorcing, I killed her off and changed my status to ‘widowed’. LOL


Currently I have 4 more arties going and then I’ll be working on a self-portrait. Havent done one of those in 6 years.